I don’t like waiting at a light or a supermarket line so where I am in life has been very hard. My husband and I are leaving our church and waiting for direction for what is next in our life. I have been reading so many verses and trying to find my strength in God an in His direction. At this point all we are hearing is “wait” and have I mentioned the fact I don’t like waiting??? I am a doer and a goal orientated person.
Paul was in prison, stoned etc and he waited. Moses was a shepherd for 40 years and he waited, David waited to be king but it took many years of being on the run. Argh…. God why can’t I be more content as the weeks pass and no more idea of what we are doing? I need to pack up our belongings and get ready for them to be put in storage as no answer has come. I haven’t packed one box.
“I can do all things through Him who gives me strength.” I believe it but at times don’t feel I live it. I feel so weak and confused. My husband has noticed the “sparkle” has gone out of me at times (does that count the times I have cried in his arms asking God for help?) I am thinking that has given him a clue! 🙂
I know I am in a boat like Peter and when my eyes turn from Jesus I see the water all around me.
“God you know this will be an up and down battle. Be patient with me as I question You. I ask your forgiveness.” Don’t let go of my hand Lord.